音時雨 ～Regentropfen～

Maybe there is only one thing is more interesting than music and bacteria researching, viewing eclipse (especially total ones).
I was drunk with the second sunrise in silence this morning.
It was wonderful.
Ummmm......
I can't find a good word to describe, that eclipse was just wonderful.
The only bad luck was that it was completely cloudy since early morning, and thus I'd got to “fake-watch” it via TV live. orz...
Anyways, it was still wonderful!!!
At the moment when the sun was covered by the moon, the television screen that was used to be darkish turned to a sudden brightness (since they've to shade the video lens or strong light would damage the machine.) “Wahhh!” was my only word then (laugh). That was excellent, No.1～
It was the climax of my exciting at the very moment～
Like that...
The night-city during daylight, then the second sunrise, with less city lights, and people's flash bulbs.
Such a scenery... me... it's here, around me...
I was drunk deeply...
Ummmm～　*__*
The rondos of the sun and the moon is really, really rare. For me, I've only experienced 3 times so far.
It would be so fortunate if I can watch again～
Anyhow, the song “Prologo” by Akiko Shikata floated over my mind when I watched the eclipse...
well, it's a bit weird, no? (laugh)

この世にて、音楽や細菌研究などより面白そうなことは、日食（とくに皆既日食）観測ということですね。
この朝からずっと、静かさにつつまれ、二度との日出を体験してちょっぴりと酔っ払ってた。
素晴らしかったです。
うにゅ……
なんか、いい言葉を捜そうにも出来ないほど、すばらしかった日食だったのです。
たった一つの残念は、こちら、わが家にて朝からすっごく曇りの天気なので、テレビで「偽り観測」することになるのもしようがなかったのです。orz...
でもね、同じく素晴らしかったです！！！
太陽が完全に月に覆われるその瞬間、テレビから先までずっと真っ暗そうなスクリーンはぱっと明るくなって(遮光しなきゃ目やカメラに悪いから、この瞬間だけから直接目で見られるので)、うゎっ！と叫んだした、私が（笑）。マジきれーだったのです、何よりも～
その瞬間まで、ずっとワクワクドキドキする心の波動も一番の高潮に上がってた～
なのです…
昼間には真っ暗の町、そして二度とソラが明けていて、より少なく町の明かりが人々の閃光電球のキラメキ。
こんな景観なんて…わたし、わたしのそばに…
酔っ払っちゃった…
うにゅ～　*__*
お日様がお月様のロンドは、このように重ねることが本気に珍しくて、私にとって今までわずかな3度だけ経験したのです。
また経験できればよかったのですね～
でも、なんだか今度日食を見るとき初めて心に浮かべた音楽は志方あきこさんの「Prologo」ということがね…
すこしだけでも、へん（笑）？

ただの音符の連鎖は音楽とはいえなく、心無きの能力は本物の感情をあらわせない。音楽というものは心の深くから流れ出す甘い水、傷を癒す一番のくすり、愛というなのメッセージを伝うてんし、天上からの贈り物。

Only chains of notes can't be called as music; heartless skill can't express the real emotion. Music is the nectar from your deep heart, it can heal the hurt and pain, it's an angel who passes the message of love, it's the gift from the heaven.

It was the first time I watched KOKIA's concert DVD, the 2007 Paris one. After watching it, I started to loop her “Cyouwa oto” time after time.
During the looping, I cried a bit.

I couldn't tell why, I was not that sad, yet I was not that happy. That live had that effect to drive me into tears. The songs were so beautiful, her voice was so perfect, the lyrics were so touching, and the ambience was so warm and enthusiastic. I wish I were there, in the crowd, listening, enjoying, clapping, and yelling for her.

I've ever heard that she sings better in live than recording. Now finally, I knew that's true. Her voice was far more transparent than any of her recordings; though I've known that her singing range is wide, still I got amazed, from the first to the last song. The whole sound effect was amazing too. One song after another, she sang there, with smile and felicity. That live was very successful, each song was showed perfectly. Plus her own comment on some songs, I could get a better understanding on her and her music.

She is that an awesome singer! She sang both extreme high and low pitches. Her voice is sometimes strong and sometimes gentle, mixed coldness and warmth in different levels. I got most amazed by the song “Pink elephant.” She started to make sounds from very a low pitch that was pretty different from her normal singing/speaking voice, and I even thought there was a male sang... then, the tune went higher and higher. Not only for the widely expended tune she made, I got amazed by her could sing for such a long span, which would be more wonderful than the song “Ave Maria” from the album “The VOICE”! Goddess! She can also be an opera vocalist! Although the introduction was only made by different tones, I can tell that this part was a real epic performance!

I can't miss another song here too: “Cyouwa oto.” That's the first song when I knew KOKIA. KOKIA created her own music world, her own music language, and her special ethnic and remarkable melody. My heart flied to KOKIA since this song. For me, it's hard to stop looping it whenever I start to listen to it. You would get the picture if you heard the surging yelling from the audience. Masterpiece. I have no other word to describe it but it.

A new song, “les couleurs de Paris” was a special one too. KOKIA composed it based on her impression of Paris. In the DVD, the melody played by a music box firstly reminded me some traditional Paris tunes. I can't understand what she sang except one phrase, “les couleurs de Paris,” the colour of Paris. KOKIA, ah, KOKIA, I can apply the word “genius” on you now!

The other songs were all very nice. They were from the album “aigakikoeru” that KOKIA released in 2006 November in Paris. “aigakikoeru,” that means “listen to the love” in Japanese. What a warm words, and what a warm album. Frankly, I didn't pay more attention on the album at the first listening, but until I watched her live, listened these songs, I couldn't suppress my emotion. I felt happy mixed with a bit of sadness. Maybe I felt more sadness than happiness. I couldn't tell exactly. Maybe what I felt was neither sadness nor happiness, but only the pure feeling of love.

At that moment, I heard the love.

KOKIA said a lot in her “Interview at Paris.” She loves music; she wants to share her feelings with people via music; be gentle, kind, and warm with others; holding the best smile and the most beautiful voice to sing for more people. She wrote her songs with these thoughts in, and thus she got her own “temperature” of music; she has merged her silent love into the music.

Music can send messages from hearts. Even though people die one day, the music would hold the message and pass it down forever. Music can overcome the barrier of country, language and culture. “Music is an excellent gift from the god; music can hold everything together.” Suddenly, I realised that I can find the message from her songs.

Listen to KOKIA, I feel the love and warmth. Loving music is such a blissful thing, and gets me into tears of joy.

It would have been the 15th times when I played the album “Die Kunst der Fuge,” in this afternoon.

I liked J.S. Bach when I was in elementary school; I still like him now. He's my god in field of music. No one can deny that his giant contribution in western music. At the time when I got his complete works, I didn't choose to enjoy his other works but only this one. As a result, I fell in love with it.

I need not to say more on the work itself; go to the web, you'll get enough. Maybe the combination of notes, the counterpoint, makes baroque music special enough for me. Fugues in this work were composed only based on a short piece of melody, a point that makes me mad.

“The governing idea of the work, is an exploration in depth of the contrapuntal possibilities inherent in a single musical subject.”

That's true. Though I didn't learn to play any instruments, I can't analysis fugues like an expert and I even can't understand what shows on wikipedia; I can only use my poor glossary of music to tell little on this work that they are in minor scale and based on a same motif; anyway, I still love the fugues, love enjoying them time after time in my darkish room in a sunny afternoon. I have no idea of why; I just like baroque fugues that much. They're kind of holy tones from the heaven. Music from harpsichord sounds so clear and grave. I can feel the power of healing inherited in.

No any other composers are as awesome as J.S. Bach; his “Die Kunst der Fuge” should be on his top list definitely.

Since this morning it has kept foggy. Till noon, my city has been surrounded in complete mist. I don't mind that foggy days would get our traffic in trouble, I do love such kinds of days.

The previous hot days ended and now it's even a bit cold. Maybe such whitish situation would still keep for a while – I just met a serious thunder pouring 2 days ago, it's possible that this fog would be turned into another rain.

Yet I came to love this moment, I don't know why. The outside is just a patch of pale white, might be rather depressed for other people. But I cherished it. Look at toward outside, you can see only white foggy air but nothing else, inside the room it's a little dark. You enjoy a piece of peaceful and calm song by yourself, with a cup of warm tea on your table. Yeah, I'm not in my seventh heaven, but I've found the paradise of calmness in my mind.

The song that I've been keeping looping might have triggered this lovely emotion, 楽園のゆりかご ('rakuen no yurikago', that means 'cradle of paradise'), by Noriko Mitose. Her voice is sweet and crystal-like, and this kind of voice gives this song a quite serenity.

I'm in my serene day, holding a kind of delicacy that only I can feel; yes, I am.

In the day before yesterday, it rained all the day. During the night, I looped the song “vintage love” by KOKIA. To choose a song to fit the weather is important to get a good ambience. That night, only this song was the best one to fit the slightly cool or rather chilly time. That's also kinda strangely, since in such a peaceful song, I was drawing an extreme cute character, Sakura from the animation “Card Capter Sakura,” I didn't feel anything unmatched.
I love raining days, I love KOKIA and her songs, and that drawing in the raining night.

Music & Lyrics: KOKIA
Piano: Kiyohide Ura
translated by Kiyoko @ 2009-06-10

When I finally finished my study plan for applying my visa (of course I paused to sing a little or take a rest during the writing), the clock of my computer came into my sight.
20:20:20.
A delicate time.
That's why I wanted to write something for my blog that I haven't updated for a while.

In past a few days, I was preparing for applying my visa. Certainly, I needed to fill some forms. However, problems showed here. Mainly, that was about only one point. That was, about writing Kanji. Since the last June (maybe even earlier), for going to study abroad, I lived in English mode all the time (actually, now, I'm in it too...). In one hand, I was told that my English got improved; in the other hand, I also knew my kanji-witting is decreasing sharply. I can write most commonly used kanji, but in case of those are not used often, I'd got to “draw” them with samples. orz...
I wanna know the reason, since I KNOW all kanji clearly...
Well, maybe I should forget it...

Yesterday night, I listened Eiko Shimamiya's album “ULYSSES.” Wah, that's wonderful! I could only cry with it and thus I fell in love with it. I listened to it until this noon! Particularly, I like these songs: “ULYSSES,” “Sukarabe no Inori,” “Mosquito,” “VANILLA,” and “LOVER.” (Hold on! There are only 9 tracks in the album!)

It's also yesterday night's event, about my fiction.
Frankly, my nickname was born from it. Before I started to write, it was fine to use the nickname freely. Anyways, when I began to write in the last year, each time when I work on it, I couldn't do with ease, and I felt like that I'm not me... as a result, at the time when my limitation of bearing the same name starts to break down (that is, NOW), I broke out my eighth revolution for my fiction.
I will not change the main frame of the fiction, and what I will change are only to change some names, and to fix some tiny point so that I may get the whole plot straight.
I will write about it soon, so let me stop the topic now (also with today's blog).
There are still so many Kalafina blog posts to be translated... (I'm a kind volunteer♪♪～ ;__; )

ついにビザのための学習計画を書き終えて（中途半端にて唄ったり休んだりすることがもちろんある）、あくびをしながらパソコンの時計を目にした。
20:20:20。
妙な時間。
だからこそ、なんてお久しぶりのブログをひとつ書こうね♪～と思ってた。

先日いろんなビザに必要なものを支度に行った。無論いろんなフォームをフィルしなくちゃ。ただし、いろんな問題もこんな時から浮かび上がった。いや、主に問題はひとつだけ。それは、漢字についてった。昨年（より早い時期かもしれないが）6月から、私は海外進学するため、ずっとずっとEnglish Modeのまま生きていた（実は今もこんなに生きてるが…）。英語がだんだん上手になると言われるうちに、実に漢字を書く能力が急降下していることを知るのがこの最近だった。よく使われる文字はなかなか書けるけど、ほかの文字を書くときは描きのように見本を沿って描いていられない。orz...
なんでよ、これ、目に見ても一つ一つもよく知ってるのに…
はあ、まあ…

さて、昨日の夜は島みやえい子さんのアルバム「ULYSSES」を聞いた。わぁ～素敵です！と呼ぶだけができるほど私はこのアルバムと恋に堕ちた。今日の午後までもずっと聞いてるんところだよ。私、とっくに「ULYSSES」、「スカラベの祈り」、「Mosquito」、「VANILLA」、「LOVER」が好きです（おいおい、アルバムに全部は9曲しかないんだぜ）！

また昨日の夜からの出来事だった。私のフィクションに関することです。
正直に言えば、私自分のニックネームはアレから生まれだした。自分が筆を落とす前に、ヒロインの名前をどんなに使ってもかまわないが、昨年からアレを書くたびに、何とか自分が見られるような気がしていて落ち着くことが出来なくて…というわけで、また同じ名前を背負う我慢の限界が崩れている間（つまり今という時期）、私は我がフィクションへの８番目の革命を始動した。
大体の結構は動かずに、キャラクターの名前などを変え、あちこち小さくフィックスして全物語を一直線になおすことは、今度のカクメイの目的です。
最近の日に詳しく言うから、今日はここまで（久しぶりのブログとも一緒にっ）。
またたくさんのKalafinaブログを翻訳しなくちゃ… （私はいい志願者だから♪♪～ ;__; ）

Before I knew I'm accepted, I was nervous on it, but after I knew, I'm still nervous on it...
In this March, I thought I might be accepted in UofC, I was happy, since then I didn't think I could be accepted in other better schools.
But a few days ago, I received another offer, from NYU.
Later I got into a huge dilemma.

Both are good schools for me, yet both have their own strong/weak points to me. I have contacted with a professor whose research field is my favorite in UofC since this February, and he's also a professor with high quality. His education history, his published papers, etc... He seems a good future tutor for me.

In case of NYU, when I applied for it, I just thought that “Ah, I love NY, thus I must apply a school in NY!” Originally, I thought I couldn't be accepted because of my not-so-good exams. But now... I later also re-read their research fields, I have a few favorites yet they're not as interesting as the UofC one. I know, NYU is a very, very good university, also the location of the school. Ummm, die Universität ist sehr gut und die Stadt ist auch sehr gut......

I don't know where I should go now. For I want to do the CA research, but I want to be embarked in NYU. Uguuuu~~~~ I really have no idea on the issue... I WANT THE CA PROFESSOR MAY TRANSFER HIMSELF INTO NYU NOW!

After all, to follow my own interest is more important, though I love some good schools and cities else, right?
I'm still in the dilemma of choosing one, I want to split myself into two.........
I'd rather there's ONLY ONE school accepted me......