音時雨 ～Regentropfen～

Even I, one not have an ear on any news, heard that news in the day before yesterday:
“September 19, 2007, Kyoto: A 16-year-old girl killed her father by an ax. Since she was a little girl she hated her father on his some actions. When she in the rudimentary school, she wanted to kill him. But she was waiting the day she has enough power to kill him. Finally one day when she has been to 17, she bought an ax. She did not go to bed that night and waited until 4 am. She went to his father’s room; cut her father some times used the ax. And after she assured his death, she awaked her mother and told her: ‘I cut my father.’ In another hand, although she thought ‘if only father disappeared from the world,’ she got some guilt to her parents.”
So that I got an email yesterday from the animation “Higurashi no Naku Koroni (ひぐらしのなく頃に)”s subscribed news:
“About ‘Higurashi no Naku Koroni’s on air break: because of the father-killing case, this animation was seen to have negative affection on it. (omission) we staff are negotiating with the TV stations for continue broadcasting. (omission) it is really a regret. (omission) we will notify you soon after the final decision. If you can wait for it, we will have the best blessedness. (omission)”
I had to really believe the news until I received this email, though I have had heard some rumors some days before.
Now I thought a lot about it; I think both the two cases are downright wrong: the case of father-killing, and the on-air break of the so-called negative animation. Maybe it is only my immature thinking, but it is my real think. Surely, I like this animation, and I want to watch till its ending. There is no any negative affection. Do you think only an animation can give someone so big affection? At least I do not think so.
And that is also one of my questions:
“Is there any animation can make one to kill another?”
To the end, what can effect us, is we ourselves, the circumstance, and the self-suggestion which made by the former two. Of course, animations are a kind of circumstance. We can laugh, cry, sing, and even imitate animations. But, animation is also made by people; it is a kind of illusion, a fiction. If only you are not an animation staffer, that animations are a tiny part of our lives. Our consciousness do is most important to the part on our action. However, can our consciousness be changed so simply? I am afraid I could call them whose answer was “yes,” with “the driftings.”
It is a fact that in animation “Higurashi no Naku Koroni,” there are some extreme senses. But to the most, it is not a bad animation. And in case of me, beside its entertainment, I also got something else: do not to obey the destiny, one has to live in self-style, and I believe one can change one’s destiny by the tiny actions. We can not consider anything with extreme senses to bad thing. In the world, everything has its two-side-nature.
Now back to that case. Her mother ever thought the girl’s protests were only her adolescent behaviors. The mother never knew her daughter would do such thing. At last, protest became tragedy. Who was wrong on earth?
The thinking in 16 or in adolescence is easy to change. I can get very well for I had walked out from it. In that time, I always too conceit, impertinent. I thought I was a queen in the world. And I also got some affection from animations. Although I have forget how much and what the affections were, there was one I can remember: to me myself, animations were only the incarnations which reflected my aspirations. From then, I knew more and more though I can not explanted clearly. Finally I got my target, and step toward my destination. I wonder whether everyone can go straight to the destination if only one knew what was really expected.
That is surely regretted on the girl. Her dream is become a cartoonist. However, she can be saved, I think. Her way is still long, and I hope she will not lose after it.
That is surely regretted on the breaking of “Higurashi no Naku Koroni.” But lots of staffers did their best for it, and lots of fans want to watch it. We can watch it someday; I and all the fans believe so.
Wish the world can go on peacefully.

ふだん新聞やニュースに時事音痴の私は、おとといそのことが知りました：
『平成19年9月19日、京都。一人の16歳の娘は自分の父親を斧で殺害しました：娘は幼い頃から父の女性にする仕方に父を嫌いになりました。小学校の時は父を殺したかったが、力が足りなかったので、できる時まで娘は待ってしまいました。つい17歳前に、娘は斧を買ってきて、一夜中眠らずに、夜明けの4時ごろ、ベッドに寝ていた父を斧で数回切ってきました。そして父の死亡確認した後、隣の部屋の母を覚めて、「父を切った」と言いました。もう一方、彼女にとって「父がこの世に消えてしまえばいい」という見方が持ちましたが、今は少しだけ父や母に「申し訳ない」という気持ちがあります。』
そして昨日、テレビアニメ『ひぐらしのなく頃に』のメール配信がそんなメールと届いてもらいました：
『「ひぐらしのなく頃に解」放送休止に関しまして：先日より斧や鉈を使った痛ましい事件が相次いでいる事情があり、一部の報道において、アニメやゲームが与える影響を取り沙汰されるといった状況がございます。（中略）放送続行について、各放送局へ繰り返し交渉を続けて参りましたが、（中略）誠に遺憾ではありますが、（中略）近日中にお知らせできるかと存じますので、少々お待ち頂ければ幸いです。（後略）』
このアニメは本当に放送休止になるなんて、先日にちょっと聞いたことがありましたが、そのメールが届いたまで私まだ信じられませんでした。
今、もう一度よくこの二つの事件や変化を考えれば、やはりどちらでもひどいことなのです。父を嫌いので殺すことなんても、悪い影響があるかもしれないのでアニメを放送休止することなんても。未熟な薄く考えたものだと思われるが、これは私の本当の見方です。本気に言えば、私はこのアニメが好き、これを見続きたいです。悪い影響なんてはありません。だって、アニメなんてそんなに大きな影響がありますか？ないはずでしょう。
そしてこれも私の持っていた疑問でした：
『人を殺させるほどひどいアニメが本当に存在していますか？』
到底、人を影響できるのは、その人自身、その人の周り、及びこの二者が作った自己暗示。もちろん、アニメは人の周りにあるものですから、これも一種の周りだと見なせます。という訳で、私たちはアニメのため笑ったり、泣いたり、歌ったりして、さらにはコスをしたりします。しかし、アニメはどうせ人で作り出すもの、ある幻のようなもの、即ちフィクションと言うものです。アニメ工作者ではない以上、アニメは私たち毎日の生活と比べては、ある小さすぎるものではありませんか。自身の意識こそ、人の行動を決定的なものです。でも、人の意識はそんな簡単に変わらせるものなんですか？『はい』と答える者のことを、私はおそらく『流されるもの』しかで呼びません。
『ひぐらしのなく頃に』と名の言うアニメは確かに過激なシーンがあります、この点で誰も認めません。でも大数の人にとって、このアニメはどこから見ても本当の悪いアニメではありません。私の立場でいえば、『ひぐらし』から私がもらったのは、娯楽の分を除いて、『運命に負けるわけがいけない、自分はどんなに弱くても、少しずつでも自分なりの仕方で行かなければなりません。』過激なシーンがあるのも一概に悪いと考えるかけがありません。『事物両面性』というのは、何のものでも持っていませんか。
あの16歳の娘の事件に戻ります。彼女いつも父に反抗したことを母親はずっとただの『思春期の少女の仕草』だと思われました。母親はどうしても娘はそこまでにしたことを見えていませんでした。結果、反抗は悲劇になりました。これ一体だれが悪かったのですか。
16歳の頃は思想が揺らぎやすい時期です。私もこんな揺らぎ思春期から歩き出したからよく理解できます。そんな時代の自分はよく生意気をしたり、わがままをしたり、勝手なことをたくさんしてきました。まるで、自分はこの世界の女王様のようでした。その時代の私はもちろんアニメに多少影響をもらいましたが、いくらとかどんなとか今はもう忘れてしまいました。でも、いつしか、私は分かりました。アニメは私にとっては、心の中にいたある『憧れ』という物の化身でした。あれから、私はどんどん何かが説明できないものを分かりになりました。ようやく私は自分の目標を見つけ、今後の目的地に歩き始めました。そして、自分の本当の期待するものを分かれば、どんな難い旅でも迷わずに行きぬけるのでしょうか。
その娘のことは本当に残念です。だって、彼女も夢は漫画家になるというものです。でも、彼女はまだ救わぬほどではありません。彼女も道はまだ長いです。これから、罪を洗いきる彼女は、もう一度道を見失いませんように。
その『ひぐらしのなく頃に』の休止のも本当に残念です。でも、それをすばらしく作り出すため、スタッフが一所懸命がんばってきて、それを見るため、大勢のファンが期待していますから。いつか放送続行ができます。私のようなファンたちもそう信じています。
どうか、この世界がいつまでも穏やかにいけますように。

Some days ago, the lighting which flashed through the night was so frightened. And before that day there were always cloudy. And the clouds were lowering in the day before yesterday; and yesterday, there was a day-long rain. Now, today, it was drizzling from the very morning. A kind of sweet moisture sank in the air. There was no any wind. The temperature was comfortable, which could not be seen as cold.
Here, the prelude ended.
In the rainy days, there is nothing better than listing to the “rainy” music.
Recently, I paid more affection on Sound Horizon (SH,) the band which a friend of mine ever introduced to me (and especially I like “Elysion”!)
And as a un-SH-work, I knew this album: the image album of television animation “Gunslinger Girl.”
This animation is little sad, and has a strong Italy-style! Every picture is soft, the story is also good. I knew that I liked its classical-like music, which composed by Toshihiko Sahashi, when I saw it (from this one: “TEMA I”.) Certainly, the OST is also an Italy-style album.
Now, let’s back to my talking album.
“Poca felicità” means “little happiness.” It’s also the pith of the animation. Every song in the album has its own listen-value; they display the animation in another fashion. Also, each girl has her own theme song, which sang by their casts, express the girls’ emotions and thoughts.
In the aspect of melody, there are happy phrases, and also sad phrases. Although the album has not so much Italy-style in it, the Italia monologs in each end of songs compensated it. It’s so little I heard any cast speak Italian, so I think each monolog listened lovely. One more, its melodies are like SH very much. I can find out so much musical elements which resemble to their other albums, like “Thanatos” or “Elysion.” If the singers are also SH’s, the album maybe more like a SH-album, I think.
However, the album is fit for rainy days, especially drizzle days. Say about it, it is so fit for recent days. So that I past those lowering rainy days without any trouble.
Poca felicità, it’s also the constant little happiness in my rainy days.

何日前の夜、空に走って通ったか輝いた稲妻は本当に怖かった。その日の前、見上げたのはそんな陰りっぽかった。一昨日は一日中雲が低く沈んで、昨日は一日中雨だった。そして今日は朝から細い霧雨がしとしとと降り続いていた。空気に甘い湿気が付いていた。風もなかった。あんまり寒くなくて、気温のほうは気持ちよかった。
では、プレリュードが終わった。
雨の日には、雨に似合う音楽を聴くはずだよ。
最近、ある友人が紹介したため、Sound Horizon（以下SH）に気になった（特に「Elysion」が大好き！）
SH以外の作品として、そのアルバムとであった。
テレビアニメ「Gunslinger Girl」のイメージアルバム。
それは一つのちょっぴり悲しくて、イタリア風がいっぱいのアニメだった。色は優しいし、物語はすごい。そして私はそれを見たとたんに、すぐ佐橋俊彦さんの素晴らしくてクラシックらしいBGMがとてもとても好きになった（これは「TEMA I」から始まったことだった。）もちろんOST曲にもイタリア風満点だよ！
それで今このアルバムに戻る。
「Poca felicità」は「小さな幸せ」とも翻訳できる。これもそのアニメのテーマ。アルバム毎曲にも聞く値段がある、原作の世界観をもう一度聞き者に示された。それぞれの女の子にも彼女たちの声優に歌われた自分のテーマ曲があって、それも女の子自身の感情や気持ちがこめたすごい歌。
旋律の雰囲気が明るいのもある、暗いのもある。佐橋さんの濃すぎたイタリア風がなくても、テーマ曲の最後にもイタリア語のささやきがあった。声優がイタリア語をしゃべるのは本当に珍しいから、ここで聞くととてもかわいいと思った。また、旋律はやはりSHらしいなの。「Thanatos」や「Elysion」などの音楽元素はたくさん探し出せるのだから^_^。歌手がもし同じSHならさらにSHそのものらしいなのよ！
このアルバムは雨、特に霧雨と似合う。と言うことは、最近の日々と似合うよね。だから、この心地あまりよくない雨の続く日に、私も順調に過ごせるの。
Poca felicità、それも私の雨の日々に降り注ぐ小さな幸せ。

I am not a physics lover, and I do not know any even the tiniest thing about quantum physics. However, I cost 2 days to read the whole detective story “Schrödinger’s mousetrap”, which published in Nature, 2005.
The detective story was composed by some scientists together, as a celebration for the World Year of Physics. But I regard it rather a SF than a detective story. When you read it you can catch some terms such us “negadex”, “qmail”, “parallel quantum code”, etc, in which a realm you might not learn. In other hand, there are also other terms which belong in quantum physics sound interesting: “quantum state”, “collapse”, “entangle”, and, even the title itself.
You may know “Schrödinger’s cat”, and if you can understand all the mean of it, you will find that how miracle the Schrödinger’s equation is! I could get its wonder only a little for my poor quantum physics knowledge, and everyone who like me can not pick up the entry too. But no matter at all, you can still enjoy it though you do not understand quantum physics!

<simple introduction>
The famous quantum physicist, Rufus Jaeger, was killed with a hole on his head while he was giving an experiment which named “Schrödinger’s mousetrap” to his audience, in his plenary lecture for the inauguration of the World Year of Physics.
After some detect works, the Inspector Karl Lister interviewed each suspect:
1. Tony Trotman: Jaeger’s head technician;
2. Fenton Baumgarden: a world authority in laser physics;
3. Nigel Lorimer: a senior editor at Nature;
4. Petra Pruszczyncki: a whiz-kid at the Gdansk Centre for optical computation;
5. Veronique Dubois: an up-and-coming experimentalist with experience insecure quantum-cryptographic;
6. Ludmilla Shlomoiuka: Jaeger’s postdoc;
7. Jirong Feng: Jaeger’s former student worked in Pruszvzyncki’s group;
8. Wilfred de Bruijn: a senior member of Jaeger’s group.
When all the interviews were done, Lister thought and found out the truth in “this world”; but what about another world? In which Jaeger’s mind, there were two parallel worlds maintain in the same time, that did like the “Schrödinger’s cat.” In one world Jaeger died, in another world he was living, the experiment got successful, they coworkers went for meal. Then one’s cell phone rang, told someone got…

Maybe professional writers can make it more interesting and suspense, but I still like this story.
Who was the murderer?
Everyone will concern this question during the reading – all the detective stories do. There were no more tricks in the story; and the only key was found in the interviews, which took 4/5 part of the story. Lister did a good job (though I do not know how he understood finally. -_-) the mousetrap was primed and sprung, everything was clear. In all, “Schrödinger’s mousetrap” will not despair you; that was what I believed.

At last, I want to appreciate to my college Nature database, so that I could read the original PDF files.
And I hope sometimes I can read another similar story about biology. ^_^

Now it is time to moon-enjoying! If in which your place it has a clear night, you can go out and look up the beautiful moon; and to feeling its wonder.
Although the moon is only one, in my mind there are lots of moods when I look the moon in the entire year’s time. Moon-enjoying is a traditional act of autumn; for the moon is the most beautiful in the period, is not it? Think the autumn nights, how clear, silent, and cold they are.
You may remember something if you are looking at such a moon: delight or unhappy, good or bad, noisy or silent, hopeful or despaired…
In the late summer or the early autumn, when cool wind flows by and waves your hairs and kisses your face, and if you stay under the moonlight, you can find everything has sink into quiet deeply. No matter you are only one or with someone together, there are different feelings which lie on what a state you are.
Well, everyone, walk out from your noisy routings and to enjoy the silently shining moon now!

Here I also want to introduce a song to you everyone: “moon child”.
No any nonsense, I only want you can listen to it when moon-enjoying. The song is a rearranged version of the cognominal BGM from television animation “AIR”. The original BGM is Kanna’s theme. And the rearranged song, which sung by Lia, is loner and quieter. To read its lyric, you can also feel out the special loneness of “AIR”.

今そろそろお月見ですね。皆様のいるところのお天気がよかったら、夜に庭へ出てきて、お月様を見られたらきっと素晴らしいでしょう。
月はたった一つだけですけど、私は一年中、四季折々だと感じています。伝統的な名月は秋の行事の一つです。この頃のお月様は最もきれいなのですから。そうじゃありませんか？秋の空は特に澄み渡って、静かで冷たがっていますから。
そんなお月様を見る誰も、何かの光景を思い出せます。楽しいこと悲しいこと、いいこと悪いこと、賑やかなこと静かなこと、希望されたこと失望されたこと…とか。
晩夏、或は早秋の涼風が傍を吹き渡って、髪をゆらして、そして頬をキスしたとき、もし自分はきれいな月明かりの下で居たら、心から体中までも深く沈んだような気がします。一人でも二人でもみんな一緒でも、それぞれの月見から素敵な味わいがあるのが決まっています。
さあ、皆様、にぎわう日常から抜け出して、高くやわらかく照らしていくお月様を見に行きましょう！

ここはまた、「月童」という詩を皆様にご紹介して差し上げたいんです。
余計なことを言わずに、ただは皆様が月見するときに、この歌を聴いて欲しいんです。この歌はテレビアニメ『AIR』からのBGM、神奈のテーマとしての同名曲の再編曲されたものです。このLiaさんが歌っている『月童』は、原曲よりもっと寂しくて静かです。歌詞をよく読んだら、『AIR』からの特有な切なさを感じられます。

Words by onuki takeshi
Music by Magome Togoshi
Arranged by ANANT-GARDE EYES
Recorded and Mixed by NAGIE
Vocal by Lia

I watched opera “Carmen” the fourth time recently. I love this opera and I ever saw 3 versions, in every version I have seen, I love this version best:
Conducted by JAMES LEVINE
Carmen -- AGNES BALTSA
Micaëla -- LEONA MITCHELL
Don José -- JOSE CARRERAS
Escamillo -- SAMUEL RAMEY
METROPOLITAN OPERA ORCHESTRA and CHORUS and BALLET
1988

Why I love the version best? For main actor was Carreras? Yes maybe.
Until now, the only regret is I never watch any opera in real opera house. However, I got lots of knowledge about classic music and listened them lot. So that before I watched the entire Carmen, I had loved its music very much. I can remember when and how I watched it every time even now.
The first time was in my middle school time. The local music TV channel broadcasted the opera in a Saturday midnight. In order not to noisy others, I had to turn the television down. I watched until the ending, and that day I slept in 2:30 am; maybe that also the first time I slept so late except in New Year’s days. Anyway, I was very excited.
The second time was also in my middle school time. I recorded this opera from the broadcast program. That time I sitting up late at night again. This broadcast program’s time was 23 o’clock; they divided Carmen into three parts, so I had to follow in 3 weeks. In addition, the version they broadcasted was the one I said in the beginning. However, then I only enjoyed Carmen by my tapes.
The third time was in my high school elective course. Our teacher introduced the opera and played its video to us. It was that version! I watched its video at last! After the class, I pleased my teacher to lend the video to me, he did.
The fourth time, of course few days before, I watched Carmen once again. I watched this opera and found my memories about it. It is happy and excited. Now I only own three VCDs of Carmen, maybe I will buy a DVD when they bad.
In that version, everything was splendid, scenes, lighting, dancing, music and singers. Bizet’s music felled with gypsy impression; the impression flows in every piece of music. That performance was so successful: the famous actors, gorgeous scenes, wonderful dances and harmonic choruses, everything.
That do is real classic composition! Every time after I watched it, I always emote so.

I watched FJY’s blog just now; there are a little interview in FJY’s blog on Kajiura.
first second third fourth

The twenty questions are on Kajiura’s life, her music, and so on. Maybe we can feel out something new after read the interview.
There is one question attracted me.

Q14) What are the colors you will give every song of “circus”?
A) Umm, it’s little different to answer.
Compare to one single color, for I wanted to make colorful songs, it’s really difficult to distinguish a color for every song. Sorry.
But maybe “piano” should be one blue color…
And “shining desert(光る砂漠)” should be a low-transparent white color, is it?

Haha, interesting, she said mixed colors and blue and white. It’s not so match to my idea, but surely we every one not have the same thoughts. Kajiura thought that, umm~ yes I get it!

There is regret in the blog too…
On Aug 28’s night, there was a total lunar eclipse. But I forgot completely…
Till now, there were some chances which I could see lunar eclipse; every time no matte how I decided to see it, but it always ended by my forgetting or oversleeping.
It’s really a pity that I never saw a lunar eclipse, though I have ever seen solar eclipse two times…

FJYブログからこれを見ました。最近FJYブログに梶浦センセイは皆からの質問を答えるのです！
それはリンクです：
第一弾 第二弾 第三弾 第四弾
生活とか作曲するとかいろいろ、全て20つの質問があります。これを読んだら、梶浦センセイの曲やFJYの歌をもう一度聴くとき、ほかの味わいが浮かびだすことがあるかもしれませんね。
そして、ひとつ質問が私を引きました。
それはね…

Ｑ１４）アルバム「circus」の各曲にイメージカラーをつけるならどのような色をつけますか？
Ａ）うーん難しいですね。
出来れば単色の曲より、色がからみあったような曲の方を作りたいなあと思っているので、自分の中でも色分けはなかなか困難です。ごめんなさい。
でも「ピアノ」は青一色かな。
「光る砂漠」は透明度の低い白とか？

はは、面白い、七色と青色と白色ですね。私の考えとちょっと違いますけど、人々によって考えもそれぞれになるのも当然ですね。梶浦センセイはそう思いますわね。はい、分かりました。

そして、またひとつの残念があります…
8月28日は皆既月食があったことなんて、ぜんぜん忘れちゃいました、この私が…
そういえば、今までもう何度もの月食があった、そのたび私も見たいと思ったのに、毎度もすかっり忘れていったり寝すぎたりしました…
今まで一度でも月食を見たこともない、本当に残念です、日食なら見たことが二度ありましたけど～

The poll in this week is “what’s your age”.
So I voted.

Look the poll result, the most voted is 18-25, and the 26-33 too. Of course I am in the 18-25.
I am always enjoy blogging, so I advised blogging to my mother sometimes. But…
“Blogging is you the younglings’ fashion, I am not interesting to blogging.” My mother said.
Maybe she is right, but there are lots of people who older than 30 are enjoying blogging. So that though we in different age, we can talk to each, and we can understand what other ages thought.
And in case of me, I think I can not be advised easily, I even thought “blogging is impossible to me”. But at last when I started my blog, I was not surprised. Why I accept blog so easily? Every time I think about it, the answer maybe only this: I don’t know too for I started it so smoothly.
My generation is easy-get. When internet went into our life and became a part of it, only we are the fittest generation to accept the entire thing, aren’t we? It’s not bad. For the sack I found the joy from blogging, what a felicity it was!
Get something easily, it’s happy~♪

オペラ本家（こう言うのはちょっと変ですね～）今週の選びは「あなたの年齢は…」です。
では、選ぼうとしました。
そして、みんなの結果はね。わっ！数で順番をすれば、18～25才を選ぶのは一番ですね、33才までの選びもたくさんありますわね。もちろん私も。
ブログに遊ぶのをいつも楽しいので、お母さんに何度も進みましたけど…
「ブログなんてものはあなたたち若いものの流行でしょう。だったら私には興味ないですわ！」と、お母さんはいつも言っています。
確かにそうですけど…でも33才以上の人たちもたくさんいますよ。ですから年齢違い人たちだけど、ネットで話し合うことができますし、違う年齢層の人の思いを分かることもできます。
私の場合なら、本人は簡単に誘われない女の子だと思うけど、「私ならネットで日記など絶対無理なの」という考えもあったけど、最終ブログを始めたのも驚かなかったです。どうしてぜんぜん驚かないんだなあ～と思うたびに、「自然に始まったので、分かる訳もないもん～」っとしかありません。
私の世代は流行を受け取りやすい世代ですね。ブログが流行したころ、ネットを受け始め、生活の一部になりやすかったのは、私の世代しかいませんでしょう。でも、これでいいんじゃないですか？私でもブログを遊んでみたあとでブログの楽しさを見つけましたの。幸いでした。
新しいものを受け取りやすい、楽しいです～♪